Around the holidays, I have the intention of DIYing all of the things, because 1) I love DIY gifts, 2) I love making DIY gifts, and 3) I want my gifts to express the thought and care that I feel about my friends who receive them. Last year, I knitted for all the kiddos in my life, and although they have long outgrown the gifts, it was really cathartic for me to make some kid-sized gifts and craft productively in a period of underemployment.
But as the age of Pinterest grows, I become less interested in DIYing for the holidays, partially because I have a fear that everyone is reading the same Buzzfeed or Brit + Co. or MAKE magazine, and that the ultimate “I made you the same gift!” faux-pas is just on the horizon.
I haven’t even been able to get started this year. I think about DIY, and then my creative paralysis sets in, and I end up doing nothing but surfing more Buzzfeed or Brit + Co. and feeling more bad about the DIY that I am not doing. The vicious circle of DIY shame.
This is not how DIY is supposed to feel, people. I am overwhelmed by DIY, and I’m not even doing anything! All these cute “edibles in jars”. Too cute. Jars. Too much. They give me DIY anxiety.
I made resin jewelry, but they came out badly…and then I gifted them anyways…and I felt bad about it, so I will have to re-do them and regift them. Embarrassing. (There aren’t even pictures, it was that bad. Maybe when I re-do them I will take pics.)
Yesterday, to cope with the DIY drought, I made 3 flavors of nutella macarons (cinnamon, mint, and lemon) in cute boxes. They don’t have the hefty pieds that make macarons awesome because I had too many mimosas while making them, and didn’t figure out why they were slightly defective. Still delicious. I may get around to giving them out to people I had intended to give them out to. Or maybe I will just invite them over to eat them and have more mimosas.
My knitting needles have been sitting untouched. My sewing machine and sewing bin have been in my car for 2 weeks. My craft room is peppered with the remnants of badly poured resin jewelry. We haven’t even sent our DIY Christmas Cards out yet, and they are just sitting in a pile on the floor of my living room, screaming to be stamped and addressed.
Somehow, my DIY failures are making me feel like I am lacking in holiday spirit this year. How very Grinchy of me.
I hope to rekindle my holiday spirit and my DIY spirit in the next couple of weeks, before the end of 2013. I am looking forward to settling down with a nice book, some tea, and a great mindless knitting pattern. And just maybe, I’ll gift it to someone. For their birthday. Or for no reason at all.
Happy holi-DIYs, everyone.